Too many thoughts

swirling around in my head. I must needs a brain dump before bed. I'm sure that's why I didn't sleep well last night.
I've decided I'm sick of politics. The no-stimulus plan is a mess, but then again AZ is looking at at least a 10% cut to Medicaid funding because the state is so badly in debt. That means fewer services for adults and kids with developmental disabilities. It looks like at least 850 families are going to lose Early Intervention services. Too bad that studies show that every dollar spent in Early Intervention returns $2-3 down the line for kids who end up NOT needing extra services once they reach school age. The cuts are going to drive some providers out of business because they just can't stay economically viable with the funding that they get, and they can't go elsewhere for income. That means that if residential homes close, people will literally end up on the street. The "current" reimbursement rate for EI is 6 years old. Imagine if you were still making the same amount of $$ as you were six years ago (actually, I'm making less than I was as a first year teacher- I just love the job a lot more). No cost of living increases, probably higher expenses (wages, health insurance, gas, etc). I'd love to have a politician switch places with one of my families for a day, then look them in the eye while telling them that Medicaid funding is being cut and they're going to lose services. Or go and work at a group home for a day- keep watch, clean up, and love on people. Oh, and make $8.50/hour.
I went to the Goodwill today looking for a skirt I saw earlier in the week (today was dollar day). The skirt wasn't there anymore, but I did bring home a bag of books. And those were just the ones that didn't let go. I browsed the children's books a bit and was tempted to buy every pre-1985 book before they're all illegal. More ridiculous laws. Basically any item intended for a child under age 12 is now assumed to have toxic amounts of lead in it unless it has been tested and shown to be safe. This includes books, specifically those written before 1985. For anyone who loves books, common sense (most 12 year olds do not eat books), and for the government to keep its nose out of my business, this is absurd.
There are threats again about passing the un-Fairness Doctrine, and even attempting to extend it to the internet. Because no one was using their freedom of speech anyways. Or maybe because they were using it? I can't help but think of 1984, where the government controls all press, and essentially rewrites history so that it always is and always has been in the right.
Why do I feel compelled to take all the problems of the world to heart? Why are there so many problems to begin with? Surely we must be spinning towards The End. I shudder to think it could get much more out of control than this, although I'm sure its possible. My prayers lately haven't been much more articulate than, "God, please help. Straighten this world out." All I keep coming up with is this, "and [they] exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. ²⁴Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. ²⁵They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator (Romans 1:23-25)." Maybe its just me, but that's not exactly comforting. I guess everything just feels too BIG right now. I'm beginning to wonder if I need a media fast for a while. All of the its will happen (or not) whether or not I'm watching, and shouting at the wind isn't exactly doing me much good.
On second (third, fourth?) thought I do know how the story ends. God is still in control, and He will draw all people to Him.